Thinking.....

So many things going through my mind today. I am wondering how much more my daycare costs could be raised. It was bad enough as it was and here I am trying to figure out a way to have them taken care of just while I try and attend class. That is a headache it itself. Like school this semester is not bad enough. At least I am passing but I do think that 15 hours was alittle excessive. This will be the last semester of anything of the sort. Just too much with the kids and trying to keep up. i would like some sort of life besides just school, school, school. Also, there is the baby's dad who continues to try to strong-arm me after the fact that court just ended. He refuses to sign the papers. He insists that I meet him halfway after she turns 3 years old to pick up and drop her off. Ok but that is over a year away from now. After thinking it over, I should probably agree to meet halfway. I am a bit tired of going to court over such minor things. I will be sure to take him back if he does not complete counseling. These papers are only in affect if he completes counseling as it ordered anyway. She will have to go with him for the weekends if he completes the counseling. I don't know. My head feels so jumbled lately. I am having a hard time remembering things. I constantly have to put stuff into the calendar of my phone no matter how minor a detail it is. I am exhausted if you cannot absolutely tell. There have also been couple of funerals this week. I could not bring myself to attend one of them as it was going to be so very heartwrenching. Not near as much as for her mother and father though. That has me down and out also. I just know that I have to keep my head up and make it till May and then I can breathe. No more worrying about daycare (at least temporarily), kids will be out of school for the summer so they will not have homework, and not as many school hours for me. I just have to reamin above water. Pray for me.....