1st blog...........

So this is my first blog so patience may be required lol. I am sitting here as my little munchkin is playing in the bath thinking about things that have happened in the last year (hell even 2 or 3 years). I am beginnging to have a sense of normalcy since this last final court date with Kinslee's father. I had been in court a total of 3 years. 2 and half years with my exhusband and 6 months with the baby's dad. I can tell you I am very tired lol. All I want is for their fathers to be fathers and to ACT like fathers. I do not know why that is so difficult. One is not spending enough time with them and one is too wrapped up in his sexual addictions in front of children to actually care she is there at all. I am speaking from what I have personlly been through obviously. All I want to do is protect these kids and give them the best possible start. I am not worried about my exhusband. I think he will not deliberately put them in harm's way. I do not think he will choose a woman who would mistreat my kids, and if he accidentally did, I do believe when he became aware of this, he would kick her to the curb. My concern with him is not finding enough time to see them as of late. His priorities may be a bit jumbled lately, but I am not exactly concerned for their safety. As you know, that could change. Now the other, not so much. This is where my fears lay. I have seen him with his other children, and he has not shown much concern for them in the past. Not caring if they wake up in the middle of the night, caring mainly about his computer and the woman of the week he chose to have around them. When he has women around, he is very inappropriate in front of the kids with women. I am talking fondling, kissing, touching of gentials, etc. right in front of them. Talk about the fights we used to have about it. It was unreal. That can wait till the kids go to bed PERIOD. Anyway, the latest problem is this. We, as in the mothers of his children, are frightened that he will continue these things. I brought all of this up in court and the home study he had done one me. (which shot him in the foot I might add lol). This weekend he decided to bring a female around the kids once again, not that he was inappropriate from what the kids say, but that he threatened his daughter that if she told her mother, it will forever ruin his life and he would never trust her again. She is only 8 or 9 years old. CPS has been involved also, and no one is listening. He really is that manipulative and calls the kids liars. So therefore, he gets away with all he does. I am astounded that no one is listening to what is really happening. He claims we are all emotionally vindictive women and that is his only problem....chosing women like "us". Why is our only concern these kids then, not what he does when they are not around? Why can he not save these "things" he does for the days they are not with him? Is it really that difficult? He is a part-time dad. He has 2 weeks inbetween to "play". Sorry to get on my soapbox lol, but it was bound to come out sometime.